I struggled writing about beauty when COVID broke out. It’s really taken a lot of emotion and energy to try to act like things were normal when things were very not normal. But I found a calm in it and you all helped me with your kind comments and positive emails to tell me that my posts took your mind of what was going on around us.
But today, I’m struggling even harder. Like many of you my eyes are glued to the TV screen even though watching it hurts my heart so much. I always want to think the best of people, I want to think the world will be ok, that things will be right with the universe with time and patience. Today, is one of those days I have doubts.
When President Kennedy was assassinated, Dr King told his wife, “This is what is going to happen to me also.” I hate that he thought that, I hate that he felt that way, that the world was so damaged that he knew it was going to kill him. He would be so devastated that things are worst not than they were over 52 years ago when he was fighting to make this world a better place for not only African Americans but for everyone.
I am saddened that in 2020 nothing has changed, nothing has evolved, and things are worst than they ever were before. I posted Tabitha Brown’s wise words on Instagram a few days ago because I didn’t have the words to express my own feelings. I can’t tell you how to feel right now when I don’t even know how I feel.
I can just hope that things will be better but there are days I feel like that might not happen in my life time. I hope I’m wrong. I hope I’m so terribly wrong. I do know that the little things matter in life and the little things can bring about big changes. Please try to do the little things so they lead to those bigger changes. If you have children, teach them well so that our future is better and brighter.
I see so many people doing nice things but also, somehow, they want recognition for that and thanks. When you do something nice you don’t need a pat on the back for it. You did it because it came from a good place. Like Lennon said, “When you do something beautiful and nobody noticed, do not be sad. For the sun, every morning is a beautiful spectacle and yet most of the audience still sleeps.”
Do good things because that’s being human.
Remember to love each other. Remind yourself we all need each other. We’re all humans and we all bleed red.
I love you all. I hope that helps a little bit.
I’m tying to remind myself it can’t rain all the time.
Black Lives Matter and The Equal Justice Initiative are two of the organizations that can help you on your journey today. I hope you’ll take the time to visit their websites, educate yourself, and maybe make a small (or large) donation to their causes.