June 1, 2020

I Hope It’ll Be Ok

I struggled writing about beauty when COVID broke out. It’s really taken a lot of emotion and energy to try to act like things were normal when things were very not normal. But I found a calm in it and you all helped me with your kind comments and positive emails to tell me that my posts took your mind of what was going on around us.

But today, I’m struggling even harder. Like many of you my eyes are glued to the TV screen even though watching it hurts my heart so much. I always want to think the best of people, I want to think the world will be ok, that things will be right with the universe with time and patience. Today, is one of those days I have doubts.

When President Kennedy was assassinated, Dr King told his wife, “This is what is going to happen to me also.” I hate that he thought that, I hate that he felt that way, that the world was so damaged that he knew it was going to kill him. He would be so devastated that things are worst not than they were over 52 years ago when he was fighting to make this world a better place for not only African Americans but for everyone.

I am saddened that in 2020 nothing has changed, nothing has evolved, and things are worst than they ever were before. I posted Tabitha Brown’s wise words on Instagram a few days ago because I didn’t have the words to express my own feelings. I can’t tell you how to feel right now when I don’t even know how I feel.

I can just hope that things will be better but there are days I feel like that might not happen in my life time. I hope I’m wrong. I hope I’m so terribly wrong. I do know that the little things matter in life and the little things can bring about big changes. Please try to do the little things so they lead to those bigger changes. If you have children, teach them well so that our future is better and brighter.

I see so many people doing nice things but also, somehow, they want recognition for that and thanks. When you do something nice you don’t need a pat on the back for it. You did it because it came from a good place. Like Lennon said, “When you do something beautiful and nobody noticed, do not be sad. For the sun, every morning is a beautiful spectacle and yet most of the audience still sleeps.”

Do good things because that’s being human.

Remember to love each other. Remind yourself we all need each other. We’re all humans and we all bleed red.

I love you all. I hope that helps a little bit.

I’m tying to remind myself it can’t rain all the time.

Black Lives Matter and The Equal Justice Initiative are two of the organizations that can help you on your journey today. I hope you’ll take the time to visit their websites, educate yourself, and maybe make a small (or large) donation to their causes.


About the Muse

Isabella MuseIsabella is just an average everyday geeky girl who doesn’t blend her eyeshadow correctly, wears too much blush, and hopes she never finds her holy grail products because she likes the thrill of the chase so much. Her mission is to bring you super honest reviews on makeup, skincare, fragrance and all things beauty. She’s in no way an expert on the topic and she sure as hell isn’t a super model. But she’s passionate about makeup and is seeking like-minded individuals that like pina coladas, getting caught in the rain, and ones that enjoy spending hundreds of dollars at Sephora without feeling buyer’s remorse. If you’re that person feel free to reach out and leave a comment or follow me on Facebook, Instagram, Twitter, and Bloglovin‘.

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  • Mary Brenner

    If you want to see a bright spot of kindness and humanity google Chris Swanson Flint Michigan Sheriff and watch the video of him with some protesters and how positive he was and turned into something awesome. I love him. The world could learn a few things from that man.

  • Annie

    Hang in there, Muse. These are dark, difficult times, but remember that most human beings are inherently good. We love you.

    • Isabella Muse

      I truly believe that πŸ™‚ Love ya back Annie! thanks for the positivity! It’s needed!

  • Kimmwc03

    Such a lovely post. I’ve been at a loss over what to say or do.

    • Isabella Muse

      Thank you! I think a lot of people feel loss right now. It’s hard to express yourself in situations like this sigh.

  • LaLa

    It’s hard to imagine that we are still exposed to racism and still deal with it. In my lifetime I’ve had to live with it because it’s something normal we go through my parents told me growing up. It will make you stronger they told me but It’s not ok, it’s never been, it hurts you particularly as a child. So I’m staying hopeful because there are amazing people out there that do not act like the select few I have had to ignore. We can help each other get through this together That’s how it should be.

    • Isabella Muse

      It hurts me to think you were told it was something you had to deal with. No kid should have to be told that. That sucks. I find it surreal that this is 2020 and we are discriminating race, sex, sexuality, nationality, etc…etc…how though…? How is it possible we have not gotten past this? πŸ™ I stand with anyone having to deal with this on the daily. I don’t want to see anyone suffer through it and I hope by being an ally I am making the world a little tiny bit better.

  • Brady Goodman

    “The world is my country, all mankind are my brethren, and to do good is my religion.” -Thomas Paine

  • Max

    Thank you for hosting a conversation on this very difficult conversation.

    Please standup to racism when you witness it. I can attest that silence and avoidance is just as damming as violence.

    • Isabella Muse

      silence is def not the answer for sure. Right now, people are absolutely chaotic for a reason. They want to be heard. A few busted windows are in no way a replacement for a life that was taken away due to unnecessary violence. Although I struggle what to say please never take that for me being silent on a very important topic! It’s just be thinking about how I want to put out there what I wish to say as I do believe how you say something is as important as the actions behind it. We need both. Both words and actions to fight this fight πŸ™‚

  • LeToya

    As a black woman, I TRULY appreciate you using your platform. We need allies to speak up because our voices have not been heard. It is re-traumatizing to see the same outcome daily and even worry about our livelihood and those of the people we love. Again, your words are appreciated. Thank you!

    • Isabella Muse

      Layota I am with you 100000%. I am so sorry you have to worry about your livelihood, your life, the people you love. This is NOT how it should be πŸ™ Thank you so much for commenting today!

  • Kathy

    Thanks so much for writing this. You summed it up beautifully. I really appreciate you and your platform. We all have to be kinder to each other.

  • Emma

    One way to support is to not spend money on companies that are marginalising people. So no Jeffree (multiple reasons), Tarte (people are lighter in winter), Too Faced (#richlivesmatter), Marc Jacobs (claims he doesn’t see colour– refuses to apologise for racist runway designs), KVD (also a white supremecist) and don’t post about them either. I know that really impedes the brands you can post about but even if you remove a couple you are doing a really important service to the makeup community. πŸ™‚

    • Isabella Muse

      Hi Emma! thanks for commenting today! I have to admit I struggle so HARD with this all the time on Musings of a Muse. There are hundreds and hundreds of brands I’ve had issues with for a variety of different reasons. After a while I feel like I am unable to write about any of them because they have all done something stupid or shady in the past or present. I’m trying though!

    • Amethyst Rose

      Sorry to butthurt, but boycotting certain brands does more harm than good, because there are people who lose their jobs because of this. If the heads of Too Faced, Tarte, etc. are racist, it doesn’t mean that EVERYONE who works for them is. We are living in awful times (and the pandemic is worsening the echonomy worldwide), and everybody needs their job.

      • Danielle Blakeney

        I see this everywhere saying nothing has changed. It’s just not true. I was in high school in the 90’s in CA. A hell of alot has changed. Almost everyone I know has mixed race families it’s not a big deal like before its just a beautiful reality. I see diverse beauty images every day. I could go on .

  • Sandy

    Thank you for posting this, Muse! I’m in my 60’s and for all of my life my mom taught me that when you do something kind, you never expect a reward. She always told me “you do it out of the goodness of your heart.” I’m so glad I’ve always lived by those words. We will get through this.